13 July 2011

Melacholy and the Overwhelming Sadness

My mom-in-law came home from the hospital in January.

When she came home, hospice came with her.

With her illness, there were no expectations set with respect to how much time we would have with her.

Praise God she has been a real trooper for the last 7 months.

Lately there has been a tremendous change.

According to hospice, she is in the pre-active stage of death.

The pre-active stage of death can be 2-3 weeks, sometimes more.

Over the last few days, mom has told me she loves me countless times.

Over the last few days, mom has told me that I've been so good to her.

Over the last few days, mom has expressed abundant appreciation.

I am so thankful for this time with mom.

Selfishly, I want more time.

I need more time.

We haven't always been close.

There have been times when we didn't speak to each other for months.

I am filled with regret over the lost time.

I'm filled with sadness over what our relationship could have been.

What it should have been.

Sadly, a person got in the way...and we both allowed it.

There is no going back.

There is only here and now.

I will cherish this time that we measure, not in days but, in moments.

I will show her in word and in deed that I am here for her.

And I love her.

08 July 2011

Flying the Friendly Skies - the Hipstamatic Way.

I missed posting for Hipstamatic Monday on the 4th.  It wasn't because I was out celebrating too late or anything along those lines.  I was T.I.R.E.D!  Tired seems to be my constant state these days, but anyway...

I traveled to Boston on June 28th to spend a few days at the office.  Every time I fly, I try to get a window seat so I can snap pictures of the clouds.  Below are several of the cloud formations I encountered on my trip to Boston.

Waves cascading...

Pretty in pink...

Pools of clouds - see the circles?  They aren't so much in the foreground, but they are in the middle and upper 1/3 of the shot.

How about a moon walk?

Cloud eruption.

Layers of clouds - I love the blue sky between the layers.

Love the layers so much here is another shot.

Do you see Tony the Tiger in this one?  I sure do!  Look right in the middle - I see two eyes, two half circle ears, a perfect big cat nose, a proud chin and prominent jowls and whiskers on both sides of the face.  "They're GREAT!"  And I just noticed that right above his head there is a squirrel riding on a motorcycle.  His face is right in the center above Tony's head and the handlebars extend on both sides.  No, I haven't been drinking.

Getting closer to Boston...

Looks like an aerial shot of waves, but it is definitely clouds.

And on my flight home - my view was, well, non-existent!  See for yourself...

Yes, Airtran, that is a nice shade of blue, but I don't care to look at that for 3 hours.  It was bad enough that my row mate was Gidget the Fidget for the entire flight and the lady behind me had to read aloud to her husband every article she found interesting in 'Go' magazine.